the real world

Originally posted February 9, 2007


"Not having any money isn't nobling; it makes you mean." I never knew how true those words were until I became a "full-fledged" adult and was shoved head first into the real world. I mean, we've always been poor, less so at certain times than other times, but still poor. I guess it just never fully affected me because it wasn't MY debt or MY bills. Since leaving school, however, I've been faced with these things in a very real way. Even someone as perky as me can get bogged down. So one night, I was talking to a friend of mine about life in general and how mine seemed to be in a rut. So I said that life sucks and he responded by chiding me for being so pessimistic. I don't quite know what came over me, but I snapped. I mean, what right did this person, who has never been in my financial position, have to lecture me about being bummed out on life? Life is hard and it doesn't care if you're trying your best. I live in the real world where you have to pay your rent regardless of whatever may come up. I have to buy crap food to eat so that I'm paying as little as possible and still manage to avoid going hungry. I go to work, which is hectic and stressfull, come home so tired that I've become a borderline hermit, and have to get up and do the same thing over because time marches on and doesn't care if you're tired, or sick, or burned out, or anything! Life is not rainbows and smiles for me anymore and I'm trying to get by with as much grace and dignity as possible, so get off my back. Life sucks, alright? I'm just finding that out sooner than expected.