alone, but not lonely

Originally posted December 26, 2007


Since being in New Jersey, I've done a number of things by myself that I previously did with others. I've gone shopping, gone to movies, and even eaten out alone. The other day I went on a nice, long walk alone. Now, solitude is not something I'm used to, nor is it something I've been known to enjoy. It is in my nature to yearn for companionship. As I look to my future and the possibilities it holds, though, I'm envisioning continued solitude. After all, I'm single with no real prospects and who knows where I could be in five years. I could be teaching english in China, serving missions in Russia, or in the Peace Corps in Africa. I could be anywhere doing any number of things, really. As exciting as these endeavors seem, I can't help but admit how having someone to share them with would be better. It's with a different attitude I do so, though. Whereas I once saw others' relationships and despaired over my lack thereof, I now see what they have and look forward to my future "someone". God's granted me peace to accept that he has someone for me and that things will fall into place when it's time, His time. I'm being groomed daily to be ready for the day when God will put His plans into motion. He makes me to wait in tranquil anticipation, with a calm heart; to be alone, but not lonely.